“I believe in God, Sunshine. I’ve always believed that God exists,” he says.
And what he says next isn’t self-pity or angst or melodrama. It’s truth.
“I just know he hates me.”
. . . Nothing about it is ridiculous. When you watch every person you love systematically removed from your life until at seventeen years old there is no one left, how can you think anything else? It makes such perfect sense that the only thing that surprises me is that I didn’t think of it myself.” (196)
This line, I think, is important because you see how Josh views the world. He views it through a pessimistic eye and his view is completely justified. Why would he view the world as anything other than a hell-hole when everyone has been taken from him? That last line though, “. . .I didn’t think of it myself,” I think it’s Nastya’s way of saying maybe God hates her too. Just maybe.
What do you think?
See you next time ~Alex